Sorry I’ve been a bit MIA on my blog lately but I’ve been working really hard on my “new endeavours” and I haven’t been able to write as much as I would want to.
I’m about to embark on a new adventure. That is VERY EXCITING, yet scary too. I like to think I’ve always known what I wanted and gone for it but over the past two years things have changed, people have come and gone and changed my perspective on life and what I want from it. I don’t mean they’ve forced me to do something I didn’t want to I just mean I believe I’ve opened my mind to different ways of thinking.
I’ve had many goals through out my life but to be happy has also been my main goal. Yes, just like that beautiful Beyonce song “pretty hurts” my aspiration in life is to be happy. If you’ve read my post on living with anxiety you’ll know that for a long time I couldn’t figure out what would make me happy, but over time I’ve realized that its the little things in life that contribute hugely to your over all happiness. Turning my life around for the better is always my goal because I never want to return to that dark place I was once in, so I know now that it doesn’t matter how I do it I WILL better myself, even if that means stepping out of my comfort zone and pushing my boundaries.
Even though I like to think I take pleasure in those little things, I know that for me I need a challenge. I need to be pursuing something I truly love, even if that scares me. Life isn’t just about going to work and coming home, it should be much more then that, so I’ve decided to embark on a whole new adventure that means stepping out of my cosy little box. It will mean I’ll have to do things that scare me and I will have to put all the things I’ve learnt over the past two and half years into practice to not let my anxiety over rule this new adventure.BUT, yes that’s a big but, I’m willing to try something new.
So for me taking this risk and pushing my boundaries is something I feel I need to do to be able to see what I am really capable of. I’ve noticed that over the past year I’ve put myself into a box and shut the lid, and to be honest I’ve been quite happy in my little box until now. Since writing my blog and learning SOOOOO much from it, I know I can achieve anything I set my mind to. OK, my blog doesn’t get 1000’s page views every day but somebody reads it (just a little shout out and a massive thank you for those of you who do, you are amazing and are what seriously keep me going so please don’t be scared to comment EVER) and you know what I enjoy it, so why stop there?
Don’t. Don’t just stop at one thing. The more risks and paths you pursue the more you’ll find out about yourself and why wouldn’t you want to get to know the most important person in your life? You. You are the most important person in your life and if you don’t think so then you need to think again. Yes you might put others before yourself sometimes but if you constantly do this in every aspect of your life then you will break. You have to do something for yourself and ONLY yourself, because YOU are the most important person in YOUR life.
So ask yourself, what is your dream? What are your goals? What is it that you really want out of life or even what is it that you really want right now? Maybe its to own your own house, or buy a new car. Perhaps its more then materialistic things, or it might be to reconnect with a family member or an old friend. Maybe its just to be happy. What ever your goal is make sure that you don’t loose sight of it because when you achieve your goal you’ll know what you are truly capable of.
I always wanted to go to New Zealand to spend more time with my family out there and to be able to travel and experience the best that New Zealand have to offer but I never had enough money, and looking back I don’t think I ever would of had enough money. I would of kept telling myself I need more, just because I was afraid to take that leap of faith. Thankfully I have an amazing boyfriend that took the leap for me and booked the tickets. I was so excited but at the same time terrified that we wouldn’t have the money in time. We had six months to pay off the flights (£1500 each) and save at least £2000 for spending. Oh and not to mention pay rent, bills and generally live. I did it. I worked 3 jobs, some days doing 12 hours and worked 7 days a week. Don’t be fooled, it was hard work for sure, but it was sooooooooo worth it.
I know that I am capable of achieving anything I set my mind too. Sometimes I just need that push, but In the end I know its me who does the hard work and Its me who reaches my goals.
If there is something you’ve wanted to do for ages but haven’t yet taken that leap, then stop over thinking it, stop doubting yourself and go for it. If you have the right mind set you will achieve whatever it is you want.
Please feel free to share your goals and achievements in the comments below
Ta-ra for now