In 5 weeks Arthur will be a year old. This “mumma year” shall we call it, has been totally life-changing. I know that sounds totally cliche but it has been.
If you’ve been reading my blog for a while now you’ll know I’m an open and honest person.
My life hasn’t changed much in the way of going out less or having less time to yourself (although obviously, I don’t… but that’s kind of a given when you have someone else being completely dependant on you). My life has changed in the way that when I first found out about Arthur I knew I had to work hard on myself to be the best person I possibly could be, for him.
Life really started to move fast. I was making big leaps in myself and growing as a person quicker than I ever have done before. I found ways to cope with my anxiety and learned more about myself. It’s been exciting and liberating. However, with big growth, comes big heartache.
As my mindset started to shift, my views and thoughts started to change, so did my inner circle. Friendships started to shift and this was really heartbreaking for me. I was torn between staying the person I was to keep my friends and be more in tune with them. Or grow as a person and drift from my friends that I once was very connected with.
I thought about my mental health and how it had deeply affected my life in so many ways and decided I needed to choose me. I needed to put my mental health and self-development first. This has not been easy.
This was one of the hardest decisions of my life.
The next big change
The other life-changing thing for me was losing my financial independence. This was something I found harder than I initially thought I would.
Sure, I made money from my blog and had my maternity pay. But it was just enough to cover my section of the bills. Not enough to live a comfortable life. And when I say comfortable I don’t mean buying a new wardrobe every month or going on big holidays every year. I mean, taking Arthur to activities, being able to buy a coffee out without feeling like I could have spent that on veg for the week.
It’s been trickier than I thought but I’ve found a new job that is flexible and pays a decent amount. I will be working as a careworker and doing 12/13 hour night shifts 3 nights a week. So essentially going back to work full time. Childcare for us is very slim, so I will still be looking after Arthur in the day. So nap times will be more precious than ever. Even
Without blowing my own trumpet, I like to consider myself a caring compassionate person. I think the job will be challenging but so so rewarding.
I’m not going to lie, the biggest thing I’m excited about with this new job, is getting my financial independence back.
So what’s going to happen to my blog
Whilst being on this journey of self-development and growth, I’ve realized more than ever that my blog and my social media community means a lot to me. It’s my passion.
Writing has always been something I’ve been drawn to. I have about a gizzilion notepads. I’ve written many “beginnings” of books. With any spare moment, I sit at my laptop and write a blog post, most don’t get published.
So this blog will never die. It is still a work in progress with it becoming my full-time job, but I will never give up.
As I’m sure you know by now, I’ve also started Youtube. It’s been so much fun and a really exciting new adventure of mine. My aim is to post two videos a week and post on here at least once, if not twice.
There’s so much that goes into blogging and Youtube. It really is a full-time job, especially if you hope to make any type of money from it. I’m going to give it my best shot though because I want this to be my income more than ever!
Where I stand now
This year has been a huge year for me. My first year of being a mum. A shift in friendships and taking big leaps in my self. From financially struggling, to finding our feet.
It’s been a rollorcoster to say the least.
Now, I feel…still. Content. Excited.
You’ll notice I didn’t say Happy. That’s because I think it’s slighly overrated… but maybe that’s for another blog post.
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